We seem to live in a distracted state. We scroll our feeds, listen to podcasts, do mindless tasks, go to meetings (where we scroll our feeds…). What would happen if we faced ourselves?
Today, while waiting for a few things to happen, I feel lost. I don’t know whether to make myself another coffee or go grocery shopping. Do I continue to work on the book or start packing? Do I clean the house or apply for jobs?
The truth is I don’t know how to be when doing isn’t urgent. If I have nothing to do, who am I and why am I here?
You could say, “but you do have things to do: write the book, clean the house…” Yeah, ok, that’s not the point.
The point is that something in my mind won’t sit in silence just contemplating the void if it’s not a means to a productive end.
That is the problem––brought to you, of course, by the Ego and the Ghosts.
By making me constantly busy, these self-appointed property managers perpetuate their control over my mind. If I don’t sit alone in silence, I may never discover how the Ghost of Idea Deflection, for example, pulls at my sleeve, pouting about how difficult publishing the book will be, so why bother anyway? And if I don’t discover it, it’ll continue to run my mental estate.
My Ghosts and Ego are blocking my awareness because that’s how they make sure they stay relevant.
To maintain full ownership of my mind, though, I need to keep my unobstructed radar focused inward, in silence and emptiness. To sit still even if/when there are a thousand open loops in my life.
Because whatever will be will be.
What will you discover when you pause your distractions?
Love,
Carolina
Carolina Perez Sanz 